Sunday, July 27, 2008

Press & Pull



Have you ever heard the phrase, "Press through it." It comes up in the Christian sub-culture a lot. "I just need to press through it, brother." In most cases, these people are referring to a difficult trial or circumstance in their lives, where if they "press through" (implication - 'into God') that they'll land somewhere upon God's golden floor and land gently at his feet. We "press into God" when facing marital problems. We "press into God" when we encounter financial problems. We "press into God" when just about anything comes our way that is more than we can handle. I "press into God" almost daily.

There is nothing wrong with "pressing into God," but what one needs to be careful with is the statement's presupposition. The dangerously false presupposition is "if I don't press into God, he won't be there for me," or "I've got to press in if there's going to be any type of change happen." The biblical and correct presupposition is, "God's pulling me hard, and if I just press into him a little bit, He well pull me through."

I used to think that "pressing into God" was digging my own way out of the cave. Boots strapped tight, mustering all strength, to just get to the other side. It's silly really. God is HUGE. He's so BIG. These words don't even scratch the surface of his power. Not to mention his jealous, passionate, unbridled love for us. He goes crazy when we are hurting, or when are backs are up against the wall. HE CAN'T STAND IT!!! So he pulls with all his might to woo us to himself. Meanwhile we're trying so hard to "press in brother," and all we really need to do is simply wait. Wait on the Lord. Listen to his voice. Meditate on his great love and power to pull you through rather than your power to launch yourself towards him.

Two nights ago, my son, Jude, was asleep while Robin and I were watching television downstairs. We heard a sharp shriek, loud and alarming sound off from his crib. Like bolts of lightening we shot up the stairs, hearts pounding. We flipped on the lights and there he was moving quietly sound asleep. It must have been a dream or something, but he was certainly fine. I had the thought, "God rushes like that when we are hurting!" Jude didn't have to "press into me" in order for me to run to his aid. He simply cried. And there wasn't anything wrong! How much more does our Heavenly Father run to us when we are in pain. How much more quickly does he respond, and how much more powerful is his outstretched arm towards us, than ours towards his.


*Photograph taken by Stacy Cross: www.stacycross.com

Monday, July 14, 2008

A Poem



Oh sweet water of life, I wait for you in the silence.  I sit, I choose to sit. I choose to sit still with my hands folded and think only of your love.  Like a small pool of water that begins to seep from the ground,  the knowledge of your love begins to slowly surround me.  Forgetting every distraction and thinking only of you, weightless it lifts me.  All my fear and shame...feelings of failure and embarrassment, scarcity and pain dissolve in the cool brisk touch of your waters.  Cover me now.  Let me swim deeper.  Let me float higher but never to reach the top.  Let me drown in your love...for in the death of these waters, I am tasting life.  A life of forgiveness so sweet, I could never imagine.  A delight so intoxicating my heart and lungs beg for more, breathing in deeper. more freely this time.

How many swims have I missed?  How many waters have I traded for the absense of this?  Your love is like a pool of perfect water.  Cleanse me in it.  Baptize me.  For there is no danger of too much of your love, of too much of your water.  The depths of your waters scare my shame and draw me close through the embrace of your death into life.  Drink.